هندباء

  Holding you after those too long 4 days was the best birth day gift of all time . If I haven't told you I had no idea what I wanted in this life. I lived years in  fog.  When I held you yesterday, I finally found the answer.  My dearest Omar,  you are  all the answers and the love I have always been waiting for.

 Dear Omar, You are the love of my life! 2 I want to do better this time. I want to become a better person for you. 3  I will always wish for her.  4 I miss her. She is all I have. 5 I don't remember the past month. I know there were too much pain, blood and tears, but i remember nothing. Sometimes I admire my ability of forgetting, but I forget. I wish she was there. 6 Her family calls her "Nosa". Every time i hear them  I feel weird!  We had it all! 7 My dearest Omar, I know I'm too old and miserable for "us". I know everything will be difficult and a little weird, but I will give it my all.. I promise.