هندباء

 لدي عنوان لمجموعة قصصية جديدة. ينقصني فقط عشر قصص جيدة. ربما أكتبها يوما.  لدي الوقت لالتقاط أنفاسي وعمر ينظر لي ويبتسم. لا يمكنني وصف الأمر. لا يمكنني وصف نتيجته. أنا ثقيلة جدا الآن ( لا أقصد وزني.. وزني زائد جدا من عام وأكثر) لكنني لا أطير بعيدا وأتوه. أنا معه وهو معي. وكلانا هنا الآن. أريد أن أحكي لها عن كل ذلك. أريد أن أحكي عن الأشياء السيئة أيضا. وأريد فرصة ثانية معها. 

  Holding you after those too long 4 days was the best birth day gift of all time . If I haven't told you I had no idea what I wanted in this life. I lived years in  fog.  When I held you yesterday, I finally found the answer.  My dearest Omar,  you are  all the answers and the love I have always been waiting for.

 Dear Omar, You are the love of my life! 2 I want to do better this time. I want to become a better person for you. 3  I will always wish for her.  4 I miss her. She is all I have. 5 I don't remember the past month. I know there was too much pain, blood and tears, but i remember nothing. Sometimes I admire my ability of forgetting, but I forget. I wish she was there. 6 Her family calls her "Nosa". Every time i hear them  I feel weird!  We had it all! 7 My dearest Omar, I know I'm too old and miserable for "us". I know everything will be difficult and a little weird, but I will give it my all.. I promise.