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Being totally alone doesn't make you better It doesn't make you worse, doesn't make you different. Being totally alone makes you a stranger. You live your life searching for the lost pack you never had. Everything else gets slower. You care less, you   want less. You totally give up and live in that guilt mode. You live hoping one day you will get somewhere you fit.. the smell of rain on dirt and you quietly dissolving out of your cage.  You know all about this "barely, almost" phase. You are barely living, you  are barely surviving and you are almost home.  One night, for some reason you don't know about or deserve, you see her in a dream, next thing you are in your kitchen, baking for the first time in years and that warm smell washes all your vicious loneliness away.. almost!